My Authentic Self

I really want to find my authentic self. 

I am exploring art journaling and recently started Dirty Footprints Studio's 21 Secrets art journaling course. I'm super happy with the idea of starting a page and not feeling like I need to have a perfect finished project at the end ... I don't even need to finish what I've started.

I'm also very drawn to Connie Solera's belief that there is no right or wrong way to art journal .... there is more than one way to open up your heart and let your creativity flow out.  Hooray!

I am also spending some much needed time looking at my patterns of interacting with others and how I invite tension and pain into my body as much physically as I do emotionally.  I recently came across 5 Signs That You're A Drama Queen and it was a much needed self-check.  In her fifth point she writes,

All this drama takes so much energy away from you and those around you.  And it’s really all about our ego, isn’t it.  In my “club” we have an acronym for the word ego:

EGO = Edging God Out

I can tell when I’m missing my spiritual connection with my Higher Power. That’s when I get my tiara on and see what kind of crisis I can create.  When this happens, I’m usually tired or overworked or in some kind of place of fear.  Again, not trusting the Universe to take care of me.
The thing is, my authentic self has no interest in drama – mine or anybody else’s.

I want to stop edging God out and start deliberately edging God in.